Quit Forever?

I had a dream I was gone Not dead, just uninvited from a new day dawn Though I wasn’t there, how did I fare? Well.. You seemed to hold your applause It’s not hard to not know what never was And sure, time it takes, and yes I’m awake, I believe I held that dream But now I'm up alongside it, and it's hard to hide, let alone see if it's me, or how I've envisioned it to be It's whatever, and it's never Is it better to quit forever? I can no longer speak, so I mime. I watch all your faces, I fill in lines I hope you all care, but yet I hate your stares, well.. I guess I'm not sad anymore. But I don't want those things I've searched my whole life for And I guess that’s ok, I’ll just go about my day holding night, dropping sea - under the moon but o’er the trees Drop it, please. But hold it tight! For one day you’ll blink out those stars in your eyes. You remember your endeavour? Is it better to quit forever?