Yesteryear

I fear maybe that I'm your mark I wish I was straight on the edge You were more to me Than ever could have provided I am deficient in just your words You're the only calm I knew I live with a disease of loneliness And you helped me out With the sight of your glance In the few short moments Left for you Had the gun Trapped me from any thought I know I was a cunt for your mind I'm unworthy of sharing your air Hold your beautiful smile A wound in my heart If I could get you in a dream Before the blinding Said to the empty Now hold the door A hell for heaven on your porch I hurt Somewhere Only in your sorrow There it is I broke my bone In the throes I feel broken Damaged and lost How do I feel less invisible Your presence Was the only sign Of that beautiful Deface my face God cut it off I'd remove my skin Please take it as an offering You can wear it as a mask I'm sorry I'm sorry I disgusted you The feeling I have now Breaks me in I pretend But the more I bleed The more unworthy I feel I fucking hate you The way you make me feel I fucking need you I need the pain to not be real Need the pain Need the pain I need the pain to not be real