Withdrawn into Seclusion

nothing changes... confined in a secluded cell one you've made for me one you've crafted by your lies and manipulation so many times I'd cry or beg you to stop so many times I'd endure the abuse I never understood at the time why I had to submit myself to you I thought that I was ungrateful because you said you loved me even though you still did all those things after I asked you to stop... nothing gets better the harassment hasn't stopped nor has the stalking or the defamation you still reverse the blame onto me and call me the things that you did to me and I now have to live with the pain and the constant reminders and frequent nightmares and constant panic attacks I'm scared to sleep because I dream of hanging from the trees to witness you staring back at me to witness you doing all those disgusting things you did I'm so tired of it all the paranoia, threats the lies, you telling me to kill myself why was I never enough? why did you take advantage? and why do you still lie? it hurts so much it hurts so fucking much... you knew my past... and my weaknesses... yet you used it all against me...