Wide Awake Cold

No signs of life And I'm running out of time Since my mind is gone There's no growing though To the passively aggressively Silence, bestowed to me By those who seek They'll be no time for my family But passive enemies like friends I used to know So I keep on going on in the studio alone And now I know, that maybe one day I will find my way back to the circle That I used to call familiar But it seems I don't belong So I sing my lonely song In a world where everything feels wrong I'm wide awake, cold How much longer till I'm sold I'm wide awake, cold How much longer till I'm sold I'm wide awake My eyes can't catch a break They're heavy with the burning of them all And with delicate precision I've put everything behind me And I've burned the photos of the ones Who used to share a hand Faking a smile And drink around it Now I think about it, it makes me feel fucking sick All the ones who said that they loved me Were just hanging on As long as I didn't ever change But I've lived beyond them, lived beyond it Cause now that I've been compromised I want it and I know that I ain't got much But I've got what all I needed then Jealousy is so fucking ugly You know the jealousy they feel Is so fucking ugly You know the jealousy they feel The jealousy they feel is so fucking ugly, so fucking ugly I'm wide awake I need a break This nightmare is lingering It's fucking ugly, fucking ugly The jealousy is fucking ugly Fucking ugly, fucking ugly, fucking ugly The jealousy is fucking ugly, fucking ugly Why can they see inside myself I'm wide awake I can't catch a break I'm wide awake cold I'm wide awake cold The fucking story gets me old I'm wide awake cold Will it ever be Something new to me I'm gone