When Will This Suffering End?

we used to gaze up at the stars and witness as they were born I placed your heart with mine and we sang through the night it was a mistake to place your heart with mine every time I got close you drew me away ever since you've left I caged by heart in solid concrete I will never love again not even myself I push everyone away living in a dark room even my tears are dry my throat burns my eyes, bloodshot ever since you've left me here in the darkest corners of my mind I've been afraid to leave I see you every time I close my eyes I see you almost every night I hope this night will be my last I often think of swallowing all the pills I can find so I can overdose in my sleep and I'm afraid tonight may be that night you'll see me soon if you try hard enough play the fucking victim see if I care because I don't anymore it just hurts inside not like you care though you never did... each time I look up at the stars I think of you and remember what we once was I also remember how you betrayed me nothing can hurt more than this I wish I knew how to let you go