When I End My Life

Hatred... In embers... They all will be put out soon With waters of the damned Deadwaters That float through me A delicate breeze Brought bad news to my head They rised On my rocks higher Than my defence Can reach... Sad words through my memories They cut me I have no more tears for this They put out fires Of my disease Putting us out Forever Hot sands, they drink my soul When i try to call her name Is spasms... Arrogance, a newborn Smelling with nivea cream I will take care of it So many days... Months now I thought I’m suicide kid But I hail life Since all were lost Silence tries to scream The double bottom Is touched No more peace In gardens of god Anger... A foundation Of isolation Blossoms so well Upon the soil I’m built with Feed my roots Save me from this I don’t beg Just whisper to my hands Hiding my face in them Torn apart like a small bird Slayed with eagle's claws Fall... Fall with me If you don’t have the words To calm me down... Feel through me... Read through me... Check my bed... Is it cold? Feel through me... Read through me... Feel empty when it's cold Feel lonely when talking to me Cry in silence I know you do it in the nights! Cry through silence Cry through me...