Unforgettable Moments of Utter Helplessness

Endless days of torment constant sleepless nights I keep thinking to myself how it'll all be different if only I had never met you... Isn't it funny how you preyed on all my weaknesses? and used each of them to your advantage and how I was so naive even when you'd lure me into the woods even when you'd pin me down and kept me silent you convinced me those things were normal and "acts of love" while I cried myself to sleep every single night and once you've had enough of me you told I did all those vile things to you even though you forced me to endure all of it the crying, the screaming the way you'd force my joints out the sockets for your own selfish gain now I force myself into isolation as I begin to starve myself for days all this pain all this built up anguish... all of the hurt... all of the denial... all the trauma... all the flashbacks... all the seizures... all the self neglect... you got away with it all you're living a more successful life full of joy and opportunity while I rot in this skin you had fucking defiled terrified to leave the house terrified to sleep malnourished and covered in wounds you never gave a fuck about me you only cared for your own horny fun while I'd weep in silence all of these pent up feelings wasting away, constantly declining I still feel your hands on me and I can shower for days but I don't feel clean at all there is no end there will never be an end to this...