Under Grass and Clover

Flashback from the night before Was it the other day, I couldn't say It's all coming in pieces But before you know they just fade away Goddamn! What did I hear, what'd I do? Where did I go and how'd I get there? I know... I'm too far gone A deadbeat, a travesty What's my strategy? Fuck me, there's blood on my hands That's nothing new but now they're shaking too Everything's soaked in sweat Here comes the "forgive and forget" Who should I forgive? Forget that plan I really don't give a damn I just need my fix, I'm dying Break out the bottle and stop crying And the calm washes over My soul drying my tears Under the grass and clover A new sense of hope appears Choking - breathing exhaust Hard to keep an even keel Shot - boiling mercury It burns so bad yet I can't feel Choking - breathing exhaust Hard to keep an even keel Sweating - boiling mercury It burns so bad yet I can't feel Walking - in a mine field Tired of keeping my eyes peeled Shot - to hell and fried No heaven, evermore denied And the calm washes over My soul drying my tears Under the grass and clover A new sense of hope appears