Tangèrin

There was a flash that struck me where I stood I could barely believe the words as they slipped out of my mouth Planted my boots into the linoleum And braced my heels for the blow Like a young colt afraid at the gate All he needed was a little push To be told it was alright To be told this is your new home For as long as you’d like For me, it’s kind of a forever thing I don’t let things go as well as I used to That’s part of getting older And though I have managed for the most part to avoid the aches of the body I have seemingly done all within my power to give myself every ache of the mind I’m back in the throes again Snapping like chalk pressed in fear against the blackboard I had to pause for a second It was only to glance down at that counter To make sure she’s steady And sure enough, she’s not Alright It’s just trembling I found a subdued kind of way to make myself large in that shrinking space But a man like me can’t be made any smaller than the width of my shoulders It’s a curse I guess I cannot be concealed I cannot vanish in the crowd I cannot suffer this alone I have to have you with me If I could resist It is likely that still, I would not What a dense thicket in this kitchen How did I get myself into this Be careful who you wish for The shade crept in closer Under the whites of your eyes There was an immediacy to the words that followed next Shocks of electricity Licking the tips of my fingers and the tip of my tongue Whatever this Whatever is Whatever we say it is For any one who watches Let them see Let them be Let me breathe my name And your name too The face of God mayn’t let me through If you hear a shriek from room above do not panic it shall vanish just let me through A beaming fire in the palm of my hand I shall be released And remember who I am If I rest upon your chest Just let me sink into the place of rest Again, let it flash Bright white then let it die See the the pain in my brain Let it roll out slow Tilt your head and your lips Bring them close and your clothes Start to smell like rose And cigarette smoke Be somebody so i said Be mine said the ink of red In the body of the letter Doubt that I could say it any better But I’m pulling out my pen Just to try it once again If you wanna live forever you’ve gotta do is sing about