Soulsick

I am only real at places I can not be My right hand rebels and chops off the left (the) hairy ape walks into stage he tries to stay erect the one who never slept in order to be perfected the arrogance of their hands the joy of the regret soulsick- good at things I never did soulsick but skindeep, tense, frantic but relieved soulsick but skindeep, tense, frantic but believed I am only real at places I can not be Dead liquid vigilant Implanted into my sleep The one who never slept The one who stays erect The one who is perfect The one I do reject soulsick but skindeep, tense, frantic but relieved soulsick but skindeep, tense, frantic but believed soulsick- good at things I never did I am only real at places I can not be Soulsick but skindeep I'm not real, just believed in Soulsick but skindeep Not real, just believe it