Shining

I'm tired I'm ashamed of myself I wish I hadn't let you down Even though you may never hear this Thought I should let you know I only regret the times That I couldn't see past my own eyes I wish you well This year a living hell I look for home everytime I think of you In my soul I feel like I'm not whole I never meant to break you down Burn you out I'm fucked up on my own drug now The loneliness it speaks so loud I hope one day You will find your way Reading texts from friends It still don't bring you back again I know that underneath the damage You still have a heart I'm sorry yours got ripped out of your chest Once or twice They should have been there To keep you safe I know the damage I have done I know the pain I can't erase I cannot bring it down Until I kill off all the gray I may never know What lies under the mask But I know deep down I miss you And I know the light I'd carry Will always be in you