She Never Came Back

every night I tell myself it wasn't my fault but I remember when you looked right through me every time I'd come to visit where have you gone? I followed you to the roof but I was in the wrong building I watched as you jumped from afar all in my nightmares your train is leaving and we will never see each other again I've known you all my life and you look right through me I remember when I'd visit the nursing home I remember, I remember it's been 3 years now and I should have seen you more this has relapsed my self hatred I'm sorry I'm sorry please forgive me please forgive me I'm sorry that I've failed you I'm sorry I'm not the man you want me to be if only I could tell you how things have been I wonder if you'd understand all the changes I've made are you watching over me? do you see me?...