Scarred

To rise, to fall, to hurt, to hate, to want, to wait, to heal, to save. Can't hear it, we fear it, awareness won't come near it. Distractive, reactive, disguised in spite of time. I never bared my emotion, my passion always strong. I never lost my devotion but somewhere fate went wrong. Can't let them rape me again, your venom's not family here. Won't let them fill me with fatalistic remedies. What if the rest of the world was hopelessly blinded by fear? Where would my sanctity live, suddenly nobody cares. It's never enough, you're wasting your time. Isn't there something I could say? You don't understand, you're closing me out. How can we live our lives this way? You tell me I'm wrong, I'm risking my life. Still I have nothing in return. I show you my hands, you don't see the scars. Maybe you'll leave me here to burn. What if the rest of the world was hopelessly drowning in vain? Where would our self-pity run, suddenly everyone cares. Blood heal me, fear change me. Belief will always save me. Blood swearing, fear, staring. Conviction made aware. Give up on misery, turn your back on dissent. Leave their distrust behind, wash your hands of regret. Do you feel you don't know me anymore? Do you feel I'm afraid of your love? How come you don't want me asking? How come my heart's not invited? You say you want everyone happy, well we're not laughing. How come you don't understand me? How come I don't understand you? Thirty years say we're in this together, so open your eyes! People in prayer for me, everyone there for me. Sometimes I feel I should face this alone. My soul exposed, it calms me to know that I won't. Blood heal me, fear change me. Belief will always save me. Blood swearing, fear, staring. Conviction made aware. Give up on misery, turn your back on dissent. Leave their distrust behind, wash your hands of regret. Blood heal me, fear change me. Belief will always save me. Blood swearing, fear, staring. Conviction made aware. Learning from misery, staring back at dissent. Leaving distrust behind, I'm inspired and content.