Pluie

I'd scream but hey, what would it do / just more noise in an un-silent world I'd move mountains but, hey, what good would it do / nothing would change I'd love to cry but hey, it wouldn't help / everyone would see me as what i am not I'd love to try but hey, you wouldn't care / i curse the day i became addicted to your thoughts Try to touch without a hand / try to feel without the pain Lay your body on warm sand / nothing would ever be the same Walking the same ways, counting the same days, the righteous will fall and the seasons withdrawn cause no matter the right way, there's no "i may", facing the truth which destroys every call And it feels like it's useless, like i am faceless, i don't recognize myself like back in the day days of fucking reckoning, what am i saying, i don't even know, everything's so goddamn grey I would love to be the one, with the best reason, but i wanna leave, by god i wanna go Go away until i'm done, fuck all the reasons, i wanna complain, you'd think that's all i do And no matter the effort, nothing will comfort, and here comes the wanderings at nightfall christ, i wish i was stronger, making all better, it feels like the end, once and for all And i want to get better, reaching that level, i think that I can but i don't know how to do it maybe it's all on me, or maybe i can't see, there must be a way, i want to get to it now, i wanna feel pain, god i wanna feel pain, so i know where i stand, and how i will grow again now, i wanna be slain, fuck i wanna be slain, so i know why i bleed, so i know why i bleed Laissez mon sang pleuvoir sur mes propres mains car mes yeux sont impurs Que des torrents de lumière me sanctifient jusqu'à l'aveuglément du pur Que ces notes me charcutent tous mes intérieurs comme dans mon adolescence Que je ne puisse exister que par les étoiles et leurs interminables danses Je ne crois plus au destin, je ne crois plus en rien Je crois qu'en ce que je vois depuis cette pluie au matin Je vaux mieux que tout ce que je pourrais croire Je vaux mieux que tout ce que je pourrais croire Try to touch without a hand / try to feel without the pain Lay your body on warm sand / nothing would ever be the same