Orchid in Rejection

When you feel so numb inside You just don't want it anymore Spend my life just dreaming And you know it's never going to hit the same It's kind of like when you need your first flame But the fire starts to dwindle And I can't rekindle the years that have gone by Cause I feel powerless Against the currents of the days That never seem to fade away In my head they replay And how much longer will I suffer Lying to myself I play the part and convince me Somehow you're thinking about me I'm in denial of the truth I know deep down I met nothing to you Take me to the days when I was blind I don't want to see no more I saw something I can't like It's not the same now that I know And these colors in my head They're not so vibrant Take the blinders give them back I went too far down that road And I can't get my smile back Wish I knew just how to feel Betrayal hurts so fucking much Was any of it real Just longing for your face And maybe we could reconcile Another painful day goes by And I think of you sometimes Just want to hold you close sometimes And I die inside Knowing I won't get the why You left me here to bleed alone And now I'll surely die