My Life Outside the Party

a moment in time becomes a flag held high / the pain you want / i can bring it inside / a lost race / turns in to some chase / darting in and out of the alleys and backyards / held down / and i wanted it more / i can feel the remove / the resolve / by the way you look at the floor / i’m calling you now / come on / come outside / there wasn’t a name / if there was / it would have been yours / unaware of how drastic intentions / beat a path through walls i never knew were there / many a son held this post / unwavering / unchanged / made to feel that this was the end / that there was meaning in the empty / not as we’ve been told / not as we know / step in my office / and see the truth / slide into the moment and feel my hands / in demands / we say what we mean / we don’t dance until the song is over / we hold ourselves higher than heaven / as lonely as ever / panic and love / an altar of shed skin / there wasn’t a name / and if there was / it would have been yours / the pretty girls / will all pass / and behind me there are rows / more beautiful than those that came before / a jealous man /panic and love / an altar of skin.