Innocent Murder

I was born the first of five But only I made it to adulthood All of my younger sisters and my brother Perished before my fourteenth summer All mysteriously disappeared But I and only I know where they are I grew up as a happy child Carefree, spirited and full of joy Blood on my hands is what fueled my soul I took spirit away and I swallowed it whole The essence of youth contained in homicide My smile was always brightest the moment they died When I was 4 I hit my little sister in the head with a rock Motionless her body went but with emotion I was struck On that day began a killing spree On that day something was born in me When I was 6, my brother disappeared No trace, my parents wept and I found them weird I knew however that if I told the truth I would become unpopular and gone would be my youth When I was 10 my youngest sister and I had a falling out She got really mad because I said I don't wanna play right now She threw a hissy fit and screamed at me I hate you To shut her up I strangled her until her skin was blue I had just turned 13 and only one other was left She stole spotlight and I condemned her theft I said we're the only ones now, but there's only room for you or me And since I was older and stronger I hung her from a tree Blood on my hands is what fueled my soul I took spirit away and I swallowed it whole The essence of youth contained in homicide My smile was always brightest the moment they died I am now grown and alone And all joy I used to feel is gone No purpose, no family, no love, no life Until the day my caseworker found me a job Substitute teacher in a small kindergarten They needed a temporary until a new one could be hired I said yes and went to work on Monday And I loved it Hi Hi Hi Hi everybody Die Die Die Die everybody Die everybody Die everybody Red is my gaze All those little children The sweetest little dead face I'm so glad I killed them Desecrated in so many ways A bewildering mayhem My frozen heart now sat ablaze Reignited once again Blood on my hands is what fuel my soul, I take spirit away and I swallow it whole The essence of youth now sent to the sky. my smile is always brightest the moment they die Blood on my hands is what fuel my soul, I take spirit away and I swallow it whole The essence of youth now sent to the sky, my smile is always brightest the moment they die