In My Absence

Eyes that meet to say farewell And linger through the sleepless nights A trail of days that end in tears But I can never be there The rush of hours that never seem to end What life has dealt you cannot comprehend I am the absentee I know you're out there searching tonight I'm right here Another day and I cannot see through your eyes I'm right here How could I have known what preceded your own thoughts Wish that I could listen to what only speaks inside Every raging dissonance Each jarring note But I could never be there How could you think that I would understand When words just go around what the heart truly wants I am the absentee I know you're out there searching tonight I'm right here Another day and I cannot see through your eyes I'm right here I want to tell you Of the exploding light How everything is visible Moments before the dark I am never there I know you're out there searching tonight Another day and I'm not there Thrust with nails of conflict Anxiety and pain Through spells of anger, confusion and defeat I wish you'd see me, here in front of you But I'm not here I know you're out there searching tonight I'm right here Another day and I cannot see through your eyes Lead me right