Hopeless

If I wake Do not approach me My heart pulsating Painfully twitching Silently, I force myself to roll Onto the floor from my bed I feel paralysed from the waist Such a pathetic waste I am I hope when I close my eyes They will never open again I am the failure I can't forgive And if I never wake I wouldn't complain My eyes roll back into my skull As the pain gets worse A knife in my chest I can only see grey and white and black and nothing that I can make sense of Pain lives inside of me Only despair can be found The only attention I gain Is from almost breaking my hands I embrace the agony I close my eyes and think to myself I will let this seizure Take my life away Ta mitt liv