Helpless, the Martyr

God avoids me in her nature of divinity Extend grace to my disgrace She's ashamed of me, blessed be Tarnished her majesty I am not equipped Cause I wanted to be so much more Than the cross you carry I wanted to be so much more Than your crown of thorns Can I let go of this martyr title I'm tired It cuts daily What we can't be You forsake me My hearts breaking Cause I wanted to be so much more Than the cross you carry I wanted to be so much more Than your crown of thorns Cause I wanted to be so much more Than the cross you carry I wanted to be so much more Than your crown of thorns I am a lost cause I don't deserve the lungs to breathe Some pull me so far Someone Someone Someone Fucking someone I'm in a six foot hole Someone dig me out of the mire Dig me