Hard to Believe

Maybe I Was Wrong Maybe I Was Right Maybe It Was Anger Maybe I Was Wrong Maybe I Was Right Maybe It Was Anger Maybe it Was Me How Could This Have Been Different? How Could This Be Undone? But It Feels So Insistent I Don't Know I Don't Know I Don't Know I Don't Know The Fights And The Lies The Deceit I Despise Was It True Was It You I Can't Feel Was It Real? How Low Can You Sink How Sick Of The Stink Your Mind Is A Tar Pit And I Get Stuck In It Used To Be A King Not A Thing Until I Looked At My Soul In A Hole And I Saw A Life Made Of Filth And Some Guilt And Then I Knew It Was True I Have To Thank You Thank You It's Hard To Believe It's Hard To Believe I'm Still Here It's Hard To Believe It's Hard To Believe At All It's Hard To Believe It's Hard To Believe I'm Still Here It's Hard To Believe It's Hard To Believe At All Should I Swallow It All? Pretend It Was All A Bad Dream? Or Have I Been So Small I Missed Something In Between? The Fights And The Lies The Deceit I Despise Was It True Was It You I Can't Feel Was It Real? How Low Can You Sink How Sick Of The Stink Your Mind Is A Tar Pit And I Get Stuck In It Used To Be A King Not A Thing Until I Looked At My Soul In A Hole And I Saw A Life Made Of Filth And Some Guilt And Then I Knew It Was True I Have To Thank You Thank You It's Hard To Believe It's Hard To Believe I'm Still Here It's Hard To Believe It's Hard To Believe At All And It's Hard To Kill It's Hard To Kill ThiS Fear Was I The Only One Who Took The Fall?