Fade to Gray

What if I am just a madman I thought I sipped some water What if this is killing me Found myself drowning tasting the sea She's not home Vacancy isn't in an option To even consider A space to barely occupy The void it even wouldn't be far enough down I keep wishing With these useless intentions I find you interesting She's not at home Because vacancy isn't in an option To even consider A space to occupy Once I got on to achieve It was only her nerve The distance between you and me But when I looked for a mother But I felt like a phantom your form perfected I keep observing these mantras Kind things I worshiped in my head The smallest everything you said I suppose it's in my fucked head I can't capture a bird that never had wings I can't see what isn't attached A gray portrait of you and me Of you and me She's not at home Because vacancy isn't even an option To even consider A space to barely be