Eulogy of Me

Within the confines of the silence The madness hides away the pain You put the walls up in defiance So you can hide away the shame You mask your scars in your own downfall The shame suppresses who you are Within the face it hides the damage Bleeding silently with scars Behind the smile hides my demons Awake to find the world is gone The clarity is now distorted We must run away from all The feelings must be expressed Or we'll terminate from the weight Awake too far gone Blood leaks Finding traces Only signs that you We never spoke We have an end Letters to joke Now I'm weighed down with depression And the trauma manifests quick I am sinking in the poison of The things they never fixed I awake the sentence gleefully I will die at my own hands Cause the world's in complacency Silence is my friend I burn with the curse of life I wish that I was fucking dead Am I a man now Am I just your clown Is it funny now I guess I forgot the jokes somehow Do you see this pain What you got to gain Let it speak your name Murder Open your motherfucking eyes This shit you call hope Spoke away your lies I'm under constant threat Of being pulled from the gutter Knock me out Cast me down The fucking hand that rocks the ruin Submit no more to the lies and the bullshit Then pray and exterminate my worthless life Break a miracle And fucking make me go I'm sick of living anyway Your such a narcissist Your God demands the worship And yet it pushes me in shit and tells me to smile Thank you for the lesson And the motherfucking knife in my spine I am my kingdom gone away As the pride evolves Discarded Aborted Potential This high horse looks Like a noose Around the neck of truth You call it faith I call it excuse To be silent