Doubt, Fear, Neglect

Running after time, the time I don’t have Chasing my tail, facing the wall, The one that I’ve built over time Adding tasks and expectations to the list Making it so impossible to reach the top Still, I find myself trying so hard to climb it The collapse and the guilt The sense of failure for not reaching it Constantly preoccupied Planning all the moments to come I forgot how to live in the moment, how to enjoy the now Lost in my days and out of breath Yet, I feel worthless when I allow myself to rest Going through the motions Buried within layers of indifference, All I see is in monochrome Everything feels like a chore This beast of my own making that I despise I’m empty Reflecting on the past I want to bring back the drive