Deeper Down

An unfortunate journey Through a bleak sea of loneliness I carved through the waves of grief In a black vastness of self doubt I have never felt so alone So pitiful and wretched and low I'm tried by a terrible wind The misery and the pains blow Fill my vast sails of ruin Steer me toward a bleak end A horizon of purples and reds The still waters of my welcome end The clouds of grey come overhead A storm will hunt me down And rip the guts out of my body That I would surely drown The unforgiving wind searches And lashes me like a whip The self-pity overwhelms me My heart sinks like a ship Thrashing out at torment and pain The maddened sea engulfs me I let myself be swallowed up The magnificent weight upon me Deeper I go, deeper down Didn't think it could get any blacker The cold bites, the pressure builds I think I no longer matter Can't tell if my eyes are open or closed The grieving waters swallow The pain I'm in through my life of sin The Devil will doubtless follow Loneliness is agony For those of you who know A war of grief and sadness rages Through mind, body and soul When lovers die and friendships fade When kin all lie forgotten The gates of agony spew forth Your memories, stinking and rotten So deep now i feel so numb I'm ravaged by utter loss The guilt, the grief, the astounding pain My body, they all will wash I hope I ne'er return to life Oh, Christ just let me go Let death devour my simple soul Lest my misery grow I quietly leave. A lonely sight Relieved of all my guilt To join a wall of deepest Hell The Devil himself has built.