Burdening Everyone - Part I

Culprit - Deceiver - Betrayer - Liar Forcer - Rapist - Destroyer - Maimer Culprit for being way too much Deceiver for not being able to speak the truth Betrayer for keeping honesty under the rug Liar for it is not easy to speak the truth Forcer - You fucking hurt me Rapist - My traumas are eternal Destroyer - Nothing will ever be the same Maimer - My insides are broken beyond repair Understand why i don't behave well / Because i don't feel like i belong There are thousand of ways to make it go away Like one where i drown myself There are thousand of ways to make it go away Like the one where i seclude myself from others and let myself rot i'm going insane, uncontrolled / the light burns my skin wherever i go the weight of people's look is massive / i can't bear it, i can't bear it chances are i'd go to isolation / maybe it would be better in a fiction but there are no movies, no heroes, no savior, no candlelight just the sight of me in a corner of a room, within eternal night sinners, call your brother back / i'm lost in a sea of black the mud goes all the way / i can't move and i'm surrounded help me please, i don't know / help me, i'm not well, no i can't go out, they will see / they will know and they'll leave How can I deserve the key to life when I am a burden to everyone Giving them only but discomfort, awkwardness, dispassion This door I created from the shards of what they call joy Doesn't open anything but a void, being my reflection There's no mirror, there's no image, there's no seasons I can't behave, enslaved to thoughts which are not mine They don't understand, my words are monsters I never belong I burden everyone By existing