Bruised

Misery at sundown Waking each day To find of what repeats Are stains of yesterday Cold and corroded Our body breaks down Wither with the years Sink below the surface And gaze at the horizon Thoughts drift in body Paradoxical time A mind and a joke A laughing mirage I fell down and cracked in the facade of my Joke of a life Cold fucking existence Aging so poorly I ache on every crevice Disaster of my fucked up mind It distorted with miseries and trauma You were somewhere in the distance And you gasp and you laugh At the fucking joke with no punchline So fucking funny Now out of money I'm becoming A busted up calloused old man Decrepit A fool full of shit Laugh at my splendour A clown with no audience The jester plays in tune With all the shit he can't erase Somewhere in the distance I saw you smiling Like a silhouette Of delusional Words we won't say anymore I don't know you anymore Take two steps back Within the caverns of yesterday Remembering sobriety's light within Your eyes once full of such youth And now there glazed over Stuck in the muck Of your things you're not dealing with The things you're not dealing with Try to pull you upward But you were stuck with the glass The glass in your hands Puffing and huffing Away with who you were Stuck to your vices Cold and verbose Numb to the core Sever what you once knew On your way downward Suck it all down as you Spiral out of control I'm a bystander Watching helplessly As you get fucked up I'm in your subconsciousness Supply fool The drug addict shit