Because She Loves You...

every night I lie awake in bed- just dreaming of her because she loves you I am at loss- I don't know how to move on because she loves you I simply am not the same anymore your whispers, echo through the night still I long for her to caress me as I sleep please come back because she loves you... I never knew what we had was only transitory I just watch as you slip through my fingers like you always did sleep deprivation has got me weak dreaming of you when I get the chance to finally sleep eradication is all I wish upon myself while you hold him each and every night is something I can't take back because she loves you I am at loss- I don't know how to move on because she loves you I simply am not the same anymore your whispers, echo through the night still I long for her to caress me as I sleep please come back because she loves you... how can I live with this? I admit I was not perfect for you but truth be told... I tried my fucking hardest because she loves you I struggle to sleep at night I feel the ambience in the thick air apparitions of you appear at the edge of my bed can you hear me? maybe if I bottle everything up again and keep everything to myself... I will take it to the grave I will be at peace dreaming of us holding hands until the end please do me a favor and forget my face I can't die and rot alone so I will hang myself leave a suicide note in my pale hands and leave this world behind with the gaze of our undying memories as the embers live on through my being I want to drift in eternal sleep dreaming of you in my arms one last time... when my body is found weep for me I loved you and not a single word was a lie I promised I'd die for you now the punishment... rotting without you by my side- "I can't stand to be alone" "each word burns, and scourges my soul" "your idol, my angel died with me" "I pray, for us to reunite hand in hand" good- bye-