Autoaggression

i’d rather destroy myself than being destroyed by you auto aggression - better than being destroyed by you i can not cope with things oppressing me but i can punish the people who love me banging my head against the wall take away any chance to live my life the way i want not my fault not your fault anyway i don’t want to live i don’t want to die pain i feel - pain you feel - feel it now i always used to hide my emotions because i think no one really wants to know the things that i can feel inside inside of me where nobody knows what is going to be hurting me feels good to me and lets my hidden self go to be free