Ash Friday

Someone put an end to this nightmare Someone don't let me fall asleep Cause everytime I see you I'll know I get haunted by the ghosts of familiarity I don't want to wake up to find We were victims of too much time past And I can't align I don't wanna up to find I missed the bus on the way to the finish line I don't wanna wake up like this I don't wanna feel emptiness I just wanna know that maybe there's a bitter hope Beyond the sights That I'm seeing in the dismal gray skies I don't wanna look like I lost everything cause Maybe the nice guy will always come up short handed Maybe the real ones don't always get pained In the chest like that Angel just cheering for a scrap of something I don't wanna wake up losing everything Maybe I can hope for my something wrong Maybe I won't get there before they close door Maybe I'm not locked out after all Or maybe I'm just full of shit Maybe I'm just full of shit I'm feeling full of it Feeling full of it But take me away Because of it Before I start to self destruct And blow my own mind With thoughts of suicide It's going to be a hard one tonight It's going to be a hard one tonight It's going to be a hard one tonight I'm reckoning with my own delusions Coming to an unwinnable Spider web I've weaved I've fucked up with demons cause It's either got a gun or I'm too late Or I'm just brain matter But nothing ever mattered in my fucked up brain Bring on the crimson rain at the split wrist A slit list Or spliff smoked to a slit wrist I just swerved my wounds into no one So I put on thoughts of you And never seem o stop plaguing me I'm waking up to find a goddamn misery Rewrite the same verse a hundred times