Apathy in November

I inhaled the guilt that smothered the room I heard that not even the sombre clouds could wash away the pain I wish I could tell you I can hide my shame we shared so many memories but it felt like you never knew me even if I hide my guilt the grief endlessly consumes me this undying sadness I watched your lips turn blue I watched as life escaped from your eyes there is no solace here there is no remorse from the disease that took you away... there is nothing I heard stories of how quiet it was at your funeral with everyone's head hung low in the pews as they approached you in the coffin later that day I heard you whisper my name in the mirror later that night sleep paralysis struck and there you were in my nightmares leaning over my bed over my head...