Alexithymia

I look into your eyes One last time Before all fades to black How can you love me? If I can't express how I feel at all Suddenly I open my eyes And you are leaving I'd ask you to stay But I know full well That I can never express My true emotions to you And so the longing continues Exhume my life Every fucking thing in my past Ignited my will to die I wish I could not burden you With such a significant flaw Adorned by my traumatic past Every chance I get I'd write long messages To show any emotion I can But then it feels insincere This searing emptiness My decaying mind The bitterness crawls Deep within my heart I can no longer feel anything There were traces of you After you've left It hurts to know How easy it is to replace me Now I see I will never be enough